nothing changed

Assalamualaikum wbt.

hi..we meet again blog! nothing much i wanna say here..its a very quick review since the last post that posted..erm..Alhamdulillah..the last January, I've got ,my results for my master..and i managed to pass all the subjects..Alhamdulillah..:) i felt so blessed! that half of my achievements had already achieved and the another half sy sedang cuba berusaha sedaya upaya untul mengachievekan nya..insyaAllah..

but for this time, it'll be a lil bit different..that i am graduating without my parents..sad yet i have to redha with all of the ketentuan given by the Creator..and deep in my heart i really2 want them to be with me..since the masters i've taken is actually dedicated to both of them..

and as the masters finished..stress kerja pun bertambah..now that i can rasa the real stress.."Anis this..Anis that" the most current ayat yg aku slalu dengar dalam opis..haaiiih..but then i take all those stress as a challenge for me to not cepat mengalah..and i take it as an ujian..Allah sedang menguji tahap kesabaran ku..

oh ya! last week i went to kuantan..with my sisters and buddy..just to visit kak niza's baby..comey and cute cm mummy dia..i had fun there..2 days there cm xckup ja nk jenjln2 cari mkn..tp best sbb dpt naik cruise..happy! and this week i'll be gone to fraser's hill..spend a nite there with the aunts and uncles and cousins..i bet that will be the best vacation..just cant wait this saturday to come..tentatives were all done and set...hehehe..so tunggu ja la sabtu nih nak naik fraser's hill :)

mental-ity

"The characteristics attitude of mind or way of thinking a person or a group" (Wikipedia dictionary)

I don't know why this topic turned up to be as my new post..and as getting "older" aku rasa aku dah jumpa bermacam-macam perangai manusia..which i might say some were "OK", some were...hmmm...think i rather keep it in..semua orang ada their own attitude and behavior..but then, boleh tak jangan nak being waayyy tooooo irritating? it's something like, when you have no idea at all...do not talk rubbish! because you guys are sangat pathetic sacrcastic!korang nak orang lain jaga hati dan perasaan korang, korang kena jaga hati dan perasaan korang dulu.. oh man..i hate to talk bad about people..but then this is the only place that i may write/talk/express my feeling towards things yg aku simpan..we're only human being...and we did mistakes..and there's nothing else that may stop us from doing mistakes..except US! i do mistakes..and i learned from it...i grew up with all the mistakes i did..and people,please stop accusing,judging people with/without intention..because of the fact that you are not in their shoes...and you know nothing whats lies beneath their hearts..

people will tend to get offended when they read this entry..so, i'd like to express my apologize if this post if it might hurt you people..sorry!

strangers

actually i have no idea kenapa perasaan itu bertandang di dalam hati ni...tertanya-tanya jugak..kenapa 'dia'? and siapa 'dia'? tp as i concerned..we're strangers to each other...'dia' manusia yg xpernah aku kenali..dan aku..manusia yg xpernah juga 'dia' kenali...tidak pernah ada kesempatan utk bercakap..tp tulisan 'dia' cukup untuk membuatkan aku tersenyum...senyum yg paling manis..'dia' yg menghidupkan hidup aku..'dia' yang menceriakan aku..
siapa 'dia'?aku sendiri xpasti...masih lagi mencari jawapan untuk itu...masih lagi keliru dengan perasaan ni...cuma yg aku mohon agar perasaan yang hadir ini adalah satu perasaan yg hadirnya tanpa ragu-ragu..dan cuma yang aku tahu perasaan ini hadirnya tanpa aku mahu...

luahan hati yg tak seberapa

what the"heck" is going on with me?while doing my works...tiba2 aku rasa cam aku agak stress...stress memikirkan tentang masa depan...it is something like "it is not going anywhere"...workloads..study...and so forth...ya ALLAH..mohon di permudahkan segalanya dan mohohn agar aku diberikan kekuatan dan ketabahan hati utk aku tempuh semuanya...

how i wish at this time,minutes and seconds..i want to scream out out...so that all the burdens gone...how i wish to do so...tp apakan daya...aku berkerja di dalam perpustakaan...maka aku xlayak utk berbuat begitu...and sometimes, my heart felt like i wan t to cry out loud...cry as much as i can...so that all the burdens gone...rasa cm dah xtertanggung dah...hati bertabahlah...ujian Tuhan ada hikmah...hikmahNya yg tersendiri.

pagi tdik...aku ada trima satu news from a friend of mine..saying that a husband to another a friend of mine was admitted to the hospital due to the colon cancer...which is at the 4th stage dah...agak sedih since aku terpikir yg kwn aku skang tgh sarat mengandung anak sulung mereka..

*Ain, sorry to hear about that...just hope that u'll be strong...doa...doa semoga segalanya dipermudahkan...insyaALLAH...Allah will always be with us..

deeper conversation

well, have no idea why i love this song dem much! ada kena mengena skit perhaps ngn aku...quite old song..but lagu nya bagus bangat sih!

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Is your favourite colour blue?

And do you always tell the truth?

Do you believe in outer space?

I'm learning you Is your skin as tan as mine?

Does your hair flow side ways?

Did someone take a portion of your heart?

Now I'm learning you

And if you don't mind can you tell me all your hopes & fears

And everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me....

I've let my guard down for you

And in time you will too

And if you don't mind can you tell me all your hopes & fears

And everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me....

And if you don't mind can you tell me all your hopes & fears

And everything that you believe in

Would you make a difference in the world

I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation

Only you can make me....

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BY:YUNA

as life goes on

assalam...

hi...lately nih aku rasa cam im getting way too sensitive with the surroundings and the environment...cepat sangat nak tersentap and cepat sangat nak menangis...kenapakah? as my friend said "itu adalah tanda-tanda menopause "..erk! aku dah nak menopause? takut...tp by hook or by crook memang semua women akan mgalami kejadian itu...

banyak betul ujian aku terima..which for me...aku anggap ada hikmah-Nya...aku percaya yang Allah xkan beri sesuatu ujian tuh kepada Hamba-Nya kalu hamba-Nya xleh tanggung ujian tuh sendirik...insyaALLAH...akan ada hikmah tuh...xdapat di dunia..Dia bg kat akhirat...kita nih manusia yg tumpang kat muka bumi Dia..hanya boleh berserah...and cuba untuk terima setiap perkara yang tertulis...

tapi kadang2..bila dah nama manusia...ada ja yg silap/salah kat pandangan...and that time mula lah hati cuba memainkan peranan...sometimes hati leh berkata baik..and sometimes hati leh berkata jahat... itu la fitrah manusia...we can't be perfect...and we do make mistakes...cumanya setiap mistakes yg kita buat..kita belajar...and from that we've got the "lesson learned"...and aku sebagai hamba-Nya pun ada but mistakes dan as life goes on...aku cuba untuk memperbaiki diri aku sendiri..baik dari segi luaran dan juga baik dari segi dalaman...insyaALLAH...segalanya dipermudahkan....yang penting niat di hati kita...

"Bahawa sesungguhnya setiap amalan itu bergantung kepada niat, dan bahawa sesungguhnya bagi setiap orang apa yang dia niatkan. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya menuju kepada Allah dan RasulNya, maka hijrahnya kepada Allah dan RasulNya. Barangsiapa yang hijrahnya kerana dunia yang dia mahu mencari habuannya, atau kerana seorang perempuan yang dia mahu kahwininya, maka hijrahnya ke arah perkara yang ditujuinya itu."
Riwayat al-Bukhari dan Muslim

:)

salam...

thanks for making my day today...its you who first made my smile this morning...we never know each other...but thanks for making my day...:)

Alhamdulillah~~