i believe i can fly

I used to think that I could not go on

And life was nothing but an awful song

But now I know the meaning of true love

I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it

If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

I believe I can fly

I believe I can touch the sky

I think about it every night and day

Spread my wings and fly away

I believe I can soar

I see me running through that open door

I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down

Sometimes silence can seem so loud

There are miracles in life I must achieve

But first I know it starts inside of me,

If I can see it, then I can do it

If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

boo..

Is there someone in your life that you talk to everyday?

yup..fam and frens...

What is the background on your cellphone right now?

plain white wallpaper....

What does the sixth message in your inbox say?

from my friend dia kim beli roti canai...

Are you currently in a relationship with anyone? If so, who?

pass!

Have you ever had your heart broken?

pernah...

Are you looking forward to this weekend?

xtau g...kena kerja...lalalalla..hari2 kerja....lalalla..busan dgn kerja...lalallla

What are your plans for this weekend?

nk rehat...nk jln2...nak rehat....xtau g mna satu nk wat..

What is your weakest subject in school?

sejarah...

Is there someone you couldn't imagine living without in your life?

my fam!

What was the last vacation you went on?

hmmm...malacca...with besties..

Do you like the cold or hot weather better?

cold la bes..leh tido dlm selimut...

How do you feel about abortions?

haram!

If you could change anything that has happened in the past, would you?
ye la...nk jdik better human being

If you had three wishes, what would you wish for?

1. berjaya di dunia dan di akhirat
2. nak jdik kaya rayap!
3. to turn back time...sbb aku nk tuka balik idup aku yg amat miserable pada msa kini ianya mjadi yg terbaik utk aku...(pham tak?)

If you could have 1 exotic animal, which animal would you have?
cacing kerawet!

ikut rentak masa

salam....

well,now is my lunch time kat opis...so, i've decided not to take my lunch today since my eyes dah mcm gila mengantuk time wat kerja tdik...so at first i was decided to sleep...(time nih la kan nk cover balik tido semlm yg serasa2nya cam xcukup tuh..hehehhehe) but then bila dah dok depan pc nih bukak tenet..tiba2 tersa cm nk godek2 lak blog org len..huhu...

so the godek2s work started....and mcm2 bnda i've read thru their blogs..mcm2 cerita and information leh dapat...smpai la i terbaca 1 post from my fren nih...hehhehe...she's getting engage soon....wahhh...congrates buddy...at last kan...setelah u've been suffering for years...really glad to read her post...dh start post bju2 kwen and so forth...and for suddenly, tiba2 aku tringt diri aku lak...hmmm...bila pkir2 balik, most of my friends (yakni time skolah mahupun time degree dlu) dh kwen..or at least dh tunang...tersa cm aku sorg ja lak yg ternganga2 disini...and this time makes me want to muhasabah diri...

"relax anis...relax...bukan msa ang lg..nnt bila dah smpai time 2..sampai la...jgn duk wat kalut sgt...kun fa ya kun..ingat 2"

that's the only thing yg aku slalu ckp dlm diri aku bila aku terpikirkn ttg hal ni...tp kdang2 terpikir gak "am i too desprado in looking for my soulmate?" and somtimes dtg lg 1 soalan dari hati menanyakan "anis, are you ready to spend all of ur time with ur soulmates" and ternyata...jawapan nya is "NOPE! IM NOT READY"...yup i am not ready yet..there's a lot of things yg aku kna blaja...A LOT! and for sure once u've got married, u'll have to be very obey to ur hubby...and there will be a lot of things that u'll need to sacrifice..so for me, i would rather let the time goes with this thing...as i always said to my frens plus myself "kita ikut retak masa shj"...bila smpai masanya..insya-ALLAH..sampai la...and time tu bhagia lah dunia akhirat hendak-Nya...amin...

aish...byk lak yg sy membebel di sini...better stop now or else lg byk pembebelan yg akan berlaku...hehhehe...and there's 1more thing that i would like to share with u guys here :

"If you are living through affliction and pain, remember Allah, call out His name, and ask Him for help. Place your forehead on the ground and mention His praises, so that you can obtain true freedom. Raise your hands in supplication, and ask of Him constantly. Cling to His door, have good thoughts about Him, and wait for His help - you will then find true happiness and success" ( Aaidh ibn Abdullah al-Qarni , 2003).

this was taken from my friend's blog... :)

p/s : to my belevod besties,bff,buddy, etc..etc...HASLINDAWAHIDA HASSAN a.k.a LINDA: 'selamat bertunang'....semoga berbahagia hingga ke anak cucu...amin... :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA

salam...

first of all i would like 2 wish u guys a selamat hari raya aidiladha...agak lambat wishnya..tp xpa la...still in a mood raya..well,nothing much pun yg aku wat smlm...sbb aku xbalik kampung kan so i just celebrated my aidiladha kt umah ja...huhuh..and this is the 2nd hari raya yg aku xblik kg...quite boring beraya di sini since all of my frens have their own agenda...and that day, menu aku hanya lah kepingan2 kek yg aku order darik kak lina(opismate aku)...konon2 nk amik mood raya la kan order2 kek nih...huhuhu...then for my breakfast i just had a very western breakfast ; scrambble eggs with baked bean...and for lunch i just had a bowl of meggi mi yg aku mintak darik sharkee..(tu pun bila dia blik keja mlm bru aku btau dia)hahahha...what a pathetic me to celebrate the eid kt umah sewa sorg2...sian..huhuh..and time tu lah aku mula terbayang daging bakar/rebus...nasik putih panas2 n air asam bawang and kerisik...haduuu...kecur gak la air liur aku...tp xpa la...jumaat ni pun dh nk balik...so i'll be spending my vacation wisely...and to tell the truth aku mmg rindu gila my homwtown...sgt2 merindui anak2 menakan aku...and i reallywant to meet with my "maliko"...dh bsar dia skang..even ibu dia ckp dia dh pndai bsembang..hehhhe...maliko...wait for ur uu okies...

::45 QUESTIONS::

1.Do you like to talk a lot?

~ hell yeah...im a talkative ppl....

2. Do you love anyone now?

~ yup...i do...family will be on top of all.....

3. Do you hate being scolded in public?

~ yup...HELLOW...im not 12-years-old kid...

4. Do you hate school?

~ lovessss school....

5. Do you hate yourself?

~ nope....love being me!

6. Do you find yourself cute?

~ ermmm...dikit2...hehhe

7. Do you feel like having a gf/bfright now?

~ pass....

8. Do you smoke or drink?

~ none of above...

9. Do you like your teachers?

~ tnpa mereka siapa la aku skang ini...

10. Do you take drugs?

~when needed..

11. Do you like going to the movies?

~ yup..but lately nih cm xda kesempatan nk tgk pun...

12. Do you have a pet?

~ nope i dont....

13. Do you prefer calling? Or SMS?

~ both...

14. Do you eat every morning?

~ erm...sumtimes...

15. Do you go online everyday?

~ yup...24/7 perhaps...or less than that...

16. Do you want to cry now?

~ yes.....i want to balik kampung!!!

17. What are you doing now?

~ thinking the answer for q18....

18. What are you thinking of now?

~ got the answer....i wish to sleep....

19. What are you listening to now?

~ train passes by my house....for every half hour aku akan dgq the same bunyik..

20. Who was the last person who sentyou a message?

~ scha feera : "indah langit krn awan,indah laut krn kebiruan,indah aidifitri krn kemaafan, indah aidiladha krn pengorbanan. selamat hari raya aidiladha."

21. Last time you got lonely?

~ now!

22. Last time someone made you happy?

~ cant remember...

23. Are you angry at someone?

~ nahh...

24. Guitar or drums?

~ both....

25. Do you love the people who make you happy?

~ definitely...

26. Do you believe in those people?

~ yeah...i do...

27. What is your target for next year?

~ find a good kerja with a good salary....finish my study with flying colors..be a better human being...kawen...hahahhhah

28. Do you rather shop alone or with people?

~ with people....

29. Who do you hate now?

~ none....

30. Who are your best friends?

~ a lot...too many to be post here....

31. Who are you missing now?

~ sings : daddy...daddy's cool...daddy..daddy's cool...

32. How are you feeling now?

~ bored...bored...bored...

33. What can you say about your ex?

~ hmm....duh.....

34. Are you single or taken?

~ taken...but yet single..hahahhah

35. If you are single, are you enjoying it?

~ hell yeah....single is rawk...

36. Do you think your ex really loved you?

~ what the FISH? hell no!

37. Message to your enemy?

~ boleh blah!

38. The most important thing in a relationship?

~ trust..communication..loyal...sincere...

39. Say something about alcoholism?

~ i have no idea...

40. Any advice to a friend you know who has a problem?

~ relax..take it easy...and face it...

41. What can you say about "HATERS"?

~ sooner or later..u'll be a LOVER...

42. Name a person you like to see everyday.

~ EN. ABIDIN BIN SHARIFF

43. You're in love with that person?

~ yeap..before, now and forever

44. Last tough question you answered?

~ Q1...

45. What did you answer?

~ go to Q1...

09 ZULHIJJAH...

Salam....

tarikh nih sebenarnya merupakan tarikh keramat utk aku...tarikh nih la merupakan tarikh pemergian bonda tercinta aku ke rahmatullah...PN.SIHA BT HAMID...betapa aku sangat2 merinduinya....moga roh nya dicucuri rahmat dan di tempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman......amin....

AL-FATIHAH~~

s.e.m.a.k p.a.l.a

how i wish that i can scream out loud..how i wish to cry out loud..hati sila la tabah..hati sila sabar...ada hikmah di sebalik kejadian..hari ni s.e.m.a.k p.a.l.a...sok lusa sapa tau...hari ni hari saya...esok lusa giliran anda pula...

.. temukan dia kebahagiaan ..

nothing much i wanna say here..just want to pray that :

"ya ALLAH kau tunaikan lah segala permintaannya..sesungguhnya setiap yg di minta itu adalah berlandaskan kekuasaan-Mu Ya ALLAH...bahagiakanlah hidupnya, ceriakan kembali hidupnya yang pernah pudar suatu masa dahulu...temukanlah dia dengan insan tersebut pada 1 jln yg lurus Ya ALLAH...iaitu pada jalan-Mu..jalan yang halal...amin ya rabbal'alamin..."

no idea

i have no idea actually...hmm....its been such a hectic day,month etc etc for me....and i keep on thinking also if all the things that i did seem to be wrong to other...perhaps...it is wrong...but i've tried to starts the conversation..i've tried to do a thing...and it seems that all went wrong...what else should i do?tell me...

...that i would be GOOD...

" that I would be good even if I did nothing that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down that I would be good if I got and stayed sick that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth that I would be great if I was no longer queen that I would be grand if I was not all knowing that I would be loved even when I numb myself that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed that I would be loved even when I was fuming that I would be good even if I was clingy that I would be good even if I lost sanity that I would be good whether with or without you "